i'm very much alive and very much upset
Jan. 29th, 2019 07:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whoam19hi guys i'm back!! and guess whatt i'm back after the whole fandom received such an upsetting news from our sunshines! what a wonderful day!
okay sorry i just tried to be sarcastic hahahaha /not even funny.
just a day after the warmheartening celebration of Sho's birthday and then the news strike us from nothing. for me, i was with my family doing our weekly vacation in mall when i saw a tweet about Arashi is going hiatus. can you imagine how shocked i was?? then i saw another tweet and another tweet and then the caps from video in JFC and then i realized that this was very REAL. they're going hiatus in 2021, precisely 2 years from now. wtf happened?? and then another tweet about Ohno wanting to try living freely and another tweet about the other 4 chose to not giving up in Arashi and another tweet about how this made the OP feel so heartbroken. i felt numb and still can't believe this is real and actually happening in Japan.
at that moment i was so close into bursting in tears but i held back myself so hard (bcs i don't want my family to know what's happening). my mood worsen and i just want to go home and bury myself in my bed and scrolling through twitter. when i back home i just continue scrolling twitter and felt numb. at that moment of acception, i chose to not cry over this. this is just an early hiatus announcement. i'm so glad Arashi is being their considerate self and chose to announce it this early. i mean, they are telling us 2 years in prior and is ready with whatever after-effects that may affect their career. i'm sure that is why a lot of people in the fandom and outside the fandom that is touched by Arashi's honesty and love towards 'Arashi' itself. i'm so glad they chose to take a rest for a while for Ohno's sake. i'm so relieved their love towards each other are still going strong as ever. i'm going to be as strong as them and will remain as their fan until forever. just a single hiatus announcement won't shake me! i'll wait until the time they're ready to be Arashi again.
and also, i have to thank Arashi for being the weirdest motivation ever. after accepting this news, i resolved myself to do anything it will take to watch their concert in 5x20 tour. so, i decided that now is the right time for me to study stocks seriously. i've been wanting to be a trader/investor since forever (mainly bcs of the big money if i succeed lol) and now i have the biggest motivation ever, that is to earn lots and lots of money so i can go to Japan 1-2 times in a year (to attend Arashi events of course!). and i still haven't give up in applying to Sbux hahahaha next time i'll be the first person to be interviewed and i'll show the HRD that i have the guts and ability to be their partner! (actually i just need the money and experience haha).
okay! that's all! ah also i'm picking up reading again after so many years (since starting uni i became too busy to read books). actually i was too immersed in K-pop fandom and twitter that i didn't have time to read. yeah i know it is bad habit replacing the good one. but now i'm back!!! as always, book fandom never fails me! not like some K-pop and J-pop fandoms that always make me moody! after 'escaping' WannaOne, i'm hit by Arashi! God forbid!
okay!! this is really the closure. i'll be back with *hopefully* positive news! bye~~
okay sorry i just tried to be sarcastic hahahaha /not even funny.
just a day after the warmheartening celebration of Sho's birthday and then the news strike us from nothing. for me, i was with my family doing our weekly vacation in mall when i saw a tweet about Arashi is going hiatus. can you imagine how shocked i was?? then i saw another tweet and another tweet and then the caps from video in JFC and then i realized that this was very REAL. they're going hiatus in 2021, precisely 2 years from now. wtf happened?? and then another tweet about Ohno wanting to try living freely and another tweet about the other 4 chose to not giving up in Arashi and another tweet about how this made the OP feel so heartbroken. i felt numb and still can't believe this is real and actually happening in Japan.
at that moment i was so close into bursting in tears but i held back myself so hard (bcs i don't want my family to know what's happening). my mood worsen and i just want to go home and bury myself in my bed and scrolling through twitter. when i back home i just continue scrolling twitter and felt numb. at that moment of acception, i chose to not cry over this. this is just an early hiatus announcement. i'm so glad Arashi is being their considerate self and chose to announce it this early. i mean, they are telling us 2 years in prior and is ready with whatever after-effects that may affect their career. i'm sure that is why a lot of people in the fandom and outside the fandom that is touched by Arashi's honesty and love towards 'Arashi' itself. i'm so glad they chose to take a rest for a while for Ohno's sake. i'm so relieved their love towards each other are still going strong as ever. i'm going to be as strong as them and will remain as their fan until forever. just a single hiatus announcement won't shake me! i'll wait until the time they're ready to be Arashi again.
and also, i have to thank Arashi for being the weirdest motivation ever. after accepting this news, i resolved myself to do anything it will take to watch their concert in 5x20 tour. so, i decided that now is the right time for me to study stocks seriously. i've been wanting to be a trader/investor since forever (mainly bcs of the big money if i succeed lol) and now i have the biggest motivation ever, that is to earn lots and lots of money so i can go to Japan 1-2 times in a year (to attend Arashi events of course!). and i still haven't give up in applying to Sbux hahahaha next time i'll be the first person to be interviewed and i'll show the HRD that i have the guts and ability to be their partner! (actually i just need the money and experience haha).
okay! that's all! ah also i'm picking up reading again after so many years (since starting uni i became too busy to read books). actually i was too immersed in K-pop fandom and twitter that i didn't have time to read. yeah i know it is bad habit replacing the good one. but now i'm back!!! as always, book fandom never fails me! not like some K-pop and J-pop fandoms that always make me moody! after 'escaping' WannaOne, i'm hit by Arashi! God forbid!
okay!! this is really the closure. i'll be back with *hopefully* positive news! bye~~
